Fw from TVN: Co+ Ho^.i Cu?a Chu'a va` co+ ho^.i va(n chu+o+ng

["Hoa Nguyen" <thanhhuy@email.msn.com>]

-----Original Message-----
From: Tuan V Nguyen <rknguyen@yahoo.com>

Cha`o ca'c ba'c,

 Ca'ch dda^y kho^ng la^u, ba'c NH co' dde^` ca^.p to+'i cuo^'n
sa'ch "Co+ ho^.i cu?a chu'a".  Ho^m no. chui va`o ND va` tha^'y ba`i
vie^'t cu?a Tra^`n Ma.nh Ha?o phe^ bi`nh cuo^'n na`y. Tui dda~ ddo.c
ba`i vie^'t cu?a TMH ma^'y ho^m nay.  Ddo.c ddi, ddo.c la.i hai ba
la^`n.  Nhu+ng tui va^~n kho^ng tha^'y ca'i points gi` ro~ ra`ng tu+`
o^ng na`y, ngoa`i vie^.c du`ng chu+~ nghi~a dde^? "dda'nh" Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha` mo^.t ca'ch kho^ng nu+o+ng tay.

 Tui vo^'n nga'n ddo.c nhu+~ng phe^ bi`nh cu?a ca'c nha`
phe^ bi`nh a(n lu+o+ng nha` nu+o+'c, vi` kho' ma` ti`m ddu+o+.c
ca'i unbias cu?a ho..

 Tui chu+a ddo.c cuo^'n "Co+ ho^.i cu?a chu'a" ne^n cha(?ng
co' gi` dde^? comment.  Ne^'u ddu+o+.c, nho+` ba'c Va(n Khoa mua du`m
va` go+?i qua cho tui (qua ba'c Le^ Phu' Bi`nh hie^.n ddang o+?
Saigon) ddu+o+.c kho^ng?  Tui hu+'a se~ co' va`i lo+`i bi`nh loa.n
cho vui\.

 Tuy nhie^n qua ddo.c dda^y ddo', tui cu~ng hi`nh dung
ddu+o+.c no^.i dung cuo^'n sa'ch no'i ve^` mo^.t anh cha`ng Hoa`ng,
mo^.t ngu+o+`i co' a(n co' ho.c, ddu+o+.c (hay bi.) ra nu+o+'c
ngoa`i dde^? ho.c, nhu+ng hoa`n ca?nh sao ddo' ddu+a anh ta va`o
con ddu+o+`ng buo^n la^.u, va` da^~n dde^'n mo^.t cuo^.c so^'ng
tru.y la.c.  Ca'i ma^u thua^~n trong anh cha`ng na`y la` ma(.c
du` anh ta so^'ng trong tru.y la.c, nhu+ng la.i ra^'t su`ng dda.o
(anh ta theo dda.o Thie^n chu'a).  Ngay ca? khi so+` mo' ngu+.c
ngu+o+`i ta, anh ta cu~ng nghi~ dde^'n dda.o ddu+'c!  Anh ta bi.
xung ddo^.t no^.i ta^m.  Dda^y la` mo^.t bi ki.ch thu+o+`ng
tha^'y o+? nhu+~ng ngu+o+`i bi. da(`n co giu+~a ly' tu+o+?ng cao
ca? va` thu+.c te^' phu? pha`ng.  Tui co' ca?m tu+o+?ng hi`nh
nhu+ anh cha`ng Hoa`ng na`y ddang ddi ti`m mo^.t cha^n ly'.  Anh
ta ddo.c he^'t sa'ch Ta^y Ta`u, kinh ke^. na`y no. ma` va^~n
kho^ng happy.  Kie^?u nhu+ "Ca^u chuye^.n do`ng so^ng" cu?a H Hess
va^.y tho^i.  Anyway, khi na`o co' di.p se~ no'i the^m ve^` vu.
na`y.

 TMH ho?i: "Ai dda^?y Hoa`ng va`o dda.i bi ki.ch cuo^.c ddo+`i?"
Va` tu+. tra? lo+`i "Thu+a cha(?ng ai ca?, chi? la` ta'c gia? Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha` muo^'n the^', a'p dda(.t the^', ne^n bi ki.ch cu?a Hoa`ng
thu+.c ra la` mo^.t bi ki.ch gia?, cha^n tu+o+`ng gia?, qua(`n qua.i
gia?, ti'nh nha?y xuo^'ng so^ng tu+. tu+? gia?, tha^'t ti`nh gia?."
To'm la.i, theo TMH, NVH phi.a ra he^'t chu+' cha? co' qua'i gi` la`
tha^.t ca?.  Thi` co' sao?  Ma^'y o^ng nha` va(n, nha` tho+ va^~n
phi.a chuye^.n ra vie^'t hoa`i dda^'y tho^i.  Ngay ca? o^ng To^'
Hu+~u cu~ng phi.a trong ba`i "Hoan ho^ chie^'n si~ Ddie^.n Bie^n"
ddo' tho^i.  Not a big deal!

 Tui co' ca?m tu+o+?ng TMH muo^'n mo^.t cuo^'n tie^?u
thuye^'t hay pha?i co' mo^.t no^.i dung "to^'t", "positive" ve^`
xa~ ho^.i, ve^` con ngu+o+`i; lo+`i va(n pha?i trau chuo^'t, bo'ng
ba^?y.  Ta.i sao pha?i nhu+ the^'???   Ta.i sao la.i kho^ng pha?n
a'nh ca'i xa^'u, ca'i a'c, ma(.t tra'i cu?a xa~ ho^.i?  Ta.i sao
kho^ng va.ch tra^`n nhu+~ng loa.i tri' thu+'c lu+u manh nhu+ Hoa`ng
ma` ngay ca? TMH cu~ng co' nha^.n xe't la` co' nhan nha?n trong ca'c
qua'n bia o^m, co+ quan nha` nu+o+'c, co^ng ty kinh doang.  Tui
nghi~ cuo^'n na`y cu?a NVH xua^'t hie^.n ddu'ng lu'c.

 TMH ca?m tha^'y kho' chi.u khi VNH du`ng nhie^`u chu+~ nu+o+'c
ngoa`i va` mi?a mai cho ra(`ng mo^.t ky? lu.c trong va(n chu+o+ng
Vie^.t Nam.  Tri'ch tie^'ng nu+o+'c ngoa`i thi` dda~ sao co+ chu+'?
Cu+' ddo.c nhu+~ng tie^?u thuye^'t cu?a Enriquez thi` cu~ng nhan
nha?n chu+~ nu+o+'c ngoa`i.

 TMH dda(.t tu+.a dde^` cho ba`i vie^'t la` "Co+ ho^.i cu?a
chu'a - dda^u la` co+ ho^.i cu?a va(n chu+o+ng?"  Tui muo^'n tra?
lo+`i "Co+ ho^.i cu?a chu'a la` co+ ho^.i cu?a va(n chu+o+ng".

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 Sau dda^y la` ba`i vie^'t cu?a TMH.


Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a -  DDa^u la` co+ ho^.i cu?a va(n chu+o+ng?

   Tie^?u thuye^'t "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" cu?a Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` da`y 466
trang
ddu+o+.c Nha` xua^'t ba?n Va(n ho.c a^'n ha`nh na(m 1999 kho^ng hie^?u vi`
sao ddu+o+.c
mo^.t so^' ngu+o+`i ra su+'c ta'n du+o+ng khi no^.i dung xa~ ho^.i ma` no'
pha?n a'nh
theo kie^?u: "Ba^y gio+` nhan nha?n nhu+~ng con ddie^'m bo? nghe^` quay sang
ra(n da.y
tie^'t ha.nh, nhu+~ng tha(`ng lu+u manh cho^.p gia^.t ba(`ng ca^'p xoay sang
la`m se^'p"
(347)? "Mo^.t xa~ ho^.i tri' thu+'c" suy ddo^`i, vo^ dda.o ddu+'c, tha ho'a
to^.t ddo^.,
dde^ tie^.n to^.t ddo^., vong tha^n to^.t ddo^. nhu+ng ddu+o+.c khoa'c ma(.t
na. trie^'t
nha^n, su+. tho^'i ru+~a ta^m ho^`n, nha^n ca'ch ddu+o+.c xu+'c nu+o+'c hoa
sang tro.ng
cu?a ke? co' ho.c chi'nh la` sa^n cho+i no+i "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a". DDa^y
la` ca?nh
sinh hoa.t cu?a Ta^m, mo^.t tri' thu+'c lu+u manh, tru`m buo^n la^.u o+?
DDu+'c: "Chu'ng
to^I ba?y ngu+o+`i ba ke't bia, na(m chai ru+o+.u\... va` ba ddu+'a con ga'i
,hai Vie^.t
mo^.t dda^`m. To^i i't khi ngu? vo+'i bo.n Ta^y va` ne^'u co' thi` pha?i
tha^.t
dde.p..."..."Con be' dda^`m dda~ say nha^'t quye^'t ddo`i la`m ti`nh, hai
tay no' di'nh
cha(.t quanh co^?, to^i ke'o va'y no' pha't ma.nh va`o ca'i mo^ng tra^`n no'
va^~n kho^ng
buo^ng. Tho^i dda`nh thua" (286, 291). DDo' la` Nha~, mo^.t phu. nu+~ tri'
thu+'c chu+?a
hoang, ha^.n ddo+`i la`m gia`u ba(`ng buo^n la^.u, vu+`a ddo.c kinh Tha'nh,
kinh Pha^.t,
lua^.n ba`n trie^'t ho.c, vu+`a tra('ng tro+.n tu+. ba.ch: "To^i nha('c
nhie^`u ve^`
Barker vi` ddo+n gia?n ddo' la` ngu+o+`i dda`n o^ng duy nha^'t to^i cha^'p
nha^.n ngu?
qua dde^m, ngoa`i La^m" (238). DDo' la` Hoa`ng - nha^n va^.t trung ta^m cu?a
tie^?u
thuye^'t, mo^.t ti'n ddo^` Ki-to^ gia'o, mo^.t co^ng chu+'c, mo^.t dda.i
tri' thu+'c
nghie^.n ru+o+.u, no'i ddu+o+.c va`i ba ngoa.i ngu+~, tho^ng tue^. Thie^`n,
Kinh Tha'nh,
trie^'t ho.c co^? kim DDo^ng Ta^y, tri'ch sa'ch kha('p cho^'n, tri'ch tu+`
Tra^`n Quo^'c
Vu+o+.ng to+'i Camus... lu'c na`o cu~ng da(`n va(.t ve^` to^`n ta.i hay
kho^ng to^`n
ta.i, hu+ vo^ hay kho^ng hu+ vo^, sie^u hi`nh hay kho^ng sie^u hi`nh, lu'c
na`o cu~ng
sang tro.ng la`m da'ng tri' thu+'c, vo+` vi.t ddi ti`m y' nghi~a cuo^.c
ddo+`i trong
trie^'t ho.c, tha^`n ho.c, tho+? ra toa`n no^~i buo^`n va.n co^? cu?a La~o,
Trang, la`m
nghe^`
ddau giu`m no^~i ddau cu?a Gie^-su hai nghi`n na(m tru+o+'c... Nhu+ng Hoa`ng
la.i thu+.c
te^' dde^'n ta`n ba.o, ma co^ qua' co+~ trong vie^.c lo+.i du.ng mo^.t co^
ga'i ye^u
mi`nh, em tha(`ng ba.n tha^n dda~ vu+o+.t bie^n, dde^? co^ ba('t bo^` vo+'i
Ta^y la^'y
ddo^-la nuo^i mi`nh va` ngu? vo+'i mi`nh suo^'t bo^'n tha'ng: "Thi?nh
thoa?ng na`ng du'i
va`o tay to^i to+` tra(m ddo^ ba?o ddi ddo^?i\.  To^i chu+a vo^ tu+ dde^'n
mu+'c tie^u
tie^`n kho^ng bie^'t xua^'t xu+'. Va? la.i, ne^'u ddu? du~ng ca?m xin tie^`n
phu. nu+~
to^i chi? da'm xin Nha~"... "To^i u'p ma(.t va`o go^'i\. Na`ng o+? nha`
mo^.t mi`nh va`
tre^n giu+o+`ng na`ng la` hai chu'ng to^i"... "To^i chi`a to+` gia^'y ba.c
xanh co'
do`ng chu+~ We trust in god ho^m qua na`ng mo+'i ddu+a\. Na`ng nhi`n to^i
khe~ cu+o+`i\.
Chu'ng to^i no'i chuye^.n tay ba trong qua'n dda(.c sa?n. Cha`ng ky~ su+
Thu.y DDie^?n...
Na`ng xa~ giao gio+'i thie^.u\..." (103, 104, 105)... Mo^.t tri' thu+'c
thu+o+.ng tha(.ng
nhu+ Hoa`ng, ddu+o+.c ta'c gia? Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` to^ ve~ trang ddie^?m
ba(`ng son
pha^'n tha^`n ho.c trie^'t ho.c, lu'c na`o cu~ng ddau dda'u ve^` thu+.c ta.i
va` hu+ vo^,
lu'c na`o cu~ng la`m da'ng tri'
thu+'c, la`m da'ng dda.o ddu+'c, la` ma^~u ngu+o+`i tho+`i thu+o+.ng sang
tro.ng ho^m
nay\? Loa.i "tri' thu+'c pha?n tri' thu+'c" na`y chu+`ng nhu+ ddang tha^'p
thoa'ng o+?
kha('p no+i, trong ca'c co+ quan, ca'c co^ng ty, trong ca'c qua'n bia o^m,
karaoke o^m,
trong ca'c salon sang tro.ng, vu~ tru+o+`ng... lie^.u co' la` nhu+~ng ddo^.c
gia? co^?
vu~ nhie^.t lie^.t cho "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" cha(ng? DDa^y la` hie^.n
tu+o+.ng dda'ng
mu+`ng cho va(n ho.c hay dda'ng lo cho xa~ ho^.i\?

    "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" - sa^n cho+i nho+'p nha'p dda^`y ve? cao dda.o,
quy' pha'i
cu?a dda'm buo^n la^.u, chuye^?n nga^n la^.u, dda'm mo'c ngoa(.c, ho^'i
lo^., la` co+
ho^.i dde^? mo^.t bo^. pha^.n tri' thu+'c bie^'n cha^'t the^? hie^.n su+.
vo^ lua^n, co+
ho^.i dde^? to^.i a'c va` to^.i lo^~i nha^.p thie^`n hoa(.c ddi nha` tho+`
ca^`u Chu'a,
cu~ng la` co+ ho^.i dde^? ta'c gia? cu?a no' khoe chu+~ nghi~a, khoe sa'ch
vo+? kie^'n
thu+'c mo^.t ca'ch kho^ng sao hie^?u no^?i\. "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" ddu+o+.c
Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha` vie^'t theo lo^'i va(n "do`ng y' thu+'c - ddo^.c thoa.i no^.i
ta^m" cu?a James
Joyce (1882-1941) dda~ tha`nh mo^'t tho+`i thu+o+.ng tu+` ho+n na(m mu+o+i
na(m qua\.
Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` vo+'i gio.ng va(n ca` tu+?ng, gia^.t cu.c, bo^~ ba~ a'p
dda(.t, vo^
lo^'i va` xa'ch me', xu'c pha.m dde^'n ta'c gia? "Nam Hoa Kinh": "Trang Tu+?
cuo^'n da^y
ca^u lu+~ng thu+~ng ddi bo^. ve^` nha`... Vo+. Trang ddang ngo^`i ta'n la'o
vo+'i ma^'y
ba` ha`ng xo'm cha.y ra\. Tro^ng kha' dde.p. Ca'ch dda^y ho+n na(m ra ti?nh
ho.c nghe^`
may\. Trong bu.ng thi` ra^'t thi'ch su+. sinh
hoa.t tra'c ta'ng xa xi? cu?a tha`nh thi. nhu+ng ngoa`i thi` de` bi?u che^
bai bo.n da^n
pho^' kho^ng tie^'t ha.nh thu?y chung. Trang ghe't tho'i ddong ddu+a, gia?
che^'t. Vo+.
Trang nghe lo+`i ti`nh nha^n la` tha(`ng co` nha` ddi.nh ra mo^. ca('t mu~i
cho^`ng.
Trang trong quan ta`i cu+o+`i nha.t, vo+. xa^'u ho^? la('m, bo+'t xoen xoe't
mie^.ng ve^`
nha^n, nghi~a, le^~, tri', ti'n. Kho^?ng Tu+? ba?o: "Phu. nha^n nan ho'a".
Bie^'t va^.y,
dda`nh va^.y\. Gu+o+.ng ga.o cu~ng kho^ng ddu+o+.c. Trang ddu+a xa^u ca'
da(.n vo+.
luo^.c ta^'t... (187) "Tha^`y Hue^. so+., nga^`m sai co^ng an ma^.t...
Cuo^'i cu`ng
tha^'y Trang na(`m khe^?nh trong kha'ch sa.n mini ddo.c ba'o la' ca?i"...
"Hue^. Thi
ga('p mie^'ng ca', ho+i tanh, dda`nh nha^'p chu't ru+o+.u\..."... "To^'i
ho^m a^'y Hue^.
Thi ve^` ro^`i, Trang say qua' dda'i da^`m ca? ra pha?n, u+o+'t chie^'c
chie^'u mo+'i\.
>Vo+. Trang ca(`n nha(`n ddu? ba nga`y" (188, 189, 191, 192, 194)...
>
>   "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" co`n nhan nha?n nhu+~ng ddoa.n va(n qua'i go+?
nhu+: "Anh
>kho^ng nha^`m, nghie^n cu+'u sinh vi~nh vie^~n kho^ng co' ba(`ng Pho'
tie^'n si~ ddang
>ngo^`i ca.nh me.t thi.t cho'. DDo^.c a^?m. Con me. ba'n mi't rong vo^ y'
cho^?ng mo^ng
>ngang ma(.t ga~ tri' thu+'c nho+~ va^.n" (86)... "Na`ng vo+. chu+a ddu+o+.c
phe'p ddo^
>thi. ho'a a'o hoa ca` khoe't ro^.ng co^?
>tho`i da^y chuye^`n mo^.t la.ng, toe toe't cu+o+`i bu+ng cam ha'i vu+o+`n
nha` va`o mo+`i
>kha'ch dde't-xe\. Chua muo^'n ru.ng ra(ng" (97)..."Thie^'u phu. ngo^`i
ca.nh to^i xin
>phe'p ddu+o+.c ddo.c tho+\. Ba`i tho+ du. do^~ libido cu?a gio^'ng ddu+.c.
Chi? mo^.t
>na(m sau to^i thu+o+`ng xuye^n ga(.p te^n na`ng tre^n ca'c phu. san ve^`
ti`nh ye^u va`
>tuo^?i tre?. Nhu+~ng va^`n tho+ va` truye^.n
>ky' bo^'c lu+?a cu?a na`ng dda~ giu'p cho nha` ho^. sinh A, Be^.nh vie^.n
C, Be^.nh
>vie^.n Gia?ng Vo~ vu+o+.t ke^' hoa.ch trong co^ng ta'c na.o hu't" (108)...
DDa.i loa.i
>lo+`i va(n, lo+`i thoa.i cu?a Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` hoa(.c la` trie^'t ly'
ti`nh ye^u de^~
>da~i kie^?u na`y: "To^i lang thang mo^.t mi`nh vo+'i tra'i tim ro+'m ma'u
trong hoang
>ma.c cuo^.c ddo+`i\... Ti`nh ye^u thi` kho^ng bie^'t gio+'i ha.n, no' me^nh
mo^ng xuye^n
>suo^'t qua kho^ng gian va` tho+`i gian. No' kho^ng tua^n theo ba^'t cu+'
mo^.t lua^.t
>le^. na`o cu?a ddo+`i thu+o+`ng. Ai tha^.t su+. say dda('m thi` tha^.t su+.
co' ti`nh
>ye^u\..." (66), hoa(.c tu.c ti~u kie^?u: "- Xe'o me. ma`y ddi tie^'ng Anh
no'i la` gi`?/
>- Tha(`ng qua?n ly' no' ddang nhi`n ma`y dda^'y -/ - Con c./ (250), hoa(.c
du.c ti'nh
>ho'a ca^u va(n: "o+? dda^y thi. tru+o+`ng co`n trinh nguye^n nhu+ng dda~
tu+. la`m suy
>ye^'u ba(`ng tho'i buo^n ba'n thu? da^m" (84)... Ca'c nha^n va^.t cu?a
Nguye^~n Vie^.t
>Ha` gio^'ng nhau nhu+ ddu'c o+? cho^~ cu`ng ddi ti`m dda.o ddu+'c trong
su+. vo^ dda.o
>ddu+'c, cu`ng thi'ch ba`n trie^'t ho.c, tha^`n ho.c vo+'i trie^'t ly' do+?m
o+? kha('p
>no+i kie^?u: "DDa`n ba` tuye^.t ddo^'i kho^ng ne^n co^ ddo+n" (241),
"Tha^.t ra vo^
>nghi~a nha^'t la` ddo.c sa'ch" (431). "Phu. nu+~ khi sa('p co' ho^n nha^n
thu+o+`ng say
>me^ bo'i toa'n" (415), "Ta^'t ca? nhu+~ng ngu+o+`i tho^ng minh dde^`u ye^u
thi'ch ho.c
>thua^.t" (414), "Thie^`n tie^'ng Nha^.t go.i la` Zen" (412)... "Co+ ho^.i
cu?a Chu'a"
>co`n
>dda.t cu`ng lu'c hai ky? lu.c trong va(n chu+o+ng Vie^.t Nam, mo^.t la`
che^m tie^'ng
>Pha'p, Anh, DDu+'c to+'i 72 la^`n, co' khi che^m ca? mo^.t ca^u, co' khi
che^m va`i ba
>tu+`; co' khi chu' thi'ch, co' khi kho^ng, chu+a ke^? nhu+~ng la^`n che^m
chu+~ nho a^m
>Ha'n Vie^.t, hai la` tri'ch sa'ch dde^'n khu?ng khie^'p, theo kie^?u mo^.t
chuye^n lua^.n
>trie^'t chu+' kho^ng co`n thua^`n
>tie^?u thuye^'t.
>
>   Hoa`ng, nha` tri' thu+'c, nha^n va^.t chi'nh cu?a "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a"
tu+` khi sinh
>ra, lo+'n le^n, ddi la`m, ro^`i ye^u ddu+o+ng, ddi nha` tho+`, vie^'t
va(n... nha^'t
>nha^'t dde^`u may ma('n ddu+o+.c hoa`n ca?nh u+u dda~i\. Kho^ng ai dda^?y
anh va`o cha^n
>tu+o+`ng ca?. The^' nhu+ng, dde^? ta.o ra ca'i co+' phi logic cho "Co+
ho^.i cu?a Chu'a"
>mang ti'nh sang tro.ng cu?a tie^?u thuye^'t lua^.n dde^`, Nguye^~n Vie^.t
Ha` dda~ ti`m
>mo^.t ca^y tha^.p gia' gia? ta.o la` ca(n be^.nh nghie^.n ru+o+.u ta^y cu?a
Hoa`ng, du`ng
>chie^'c bu'a nho^`i bo^ng ma` ddo'ng ddinh nha^n va^.t na`y bi`nh bi.ch
va`o tu+`ng trang
>sa'ch ho`ng cu+'u chuo^.c va(n chu+o+ng. Mo^.t ngu+o+`i tho^ng minh, uye^n
ba'c, me^
>thie^`n va` tha^`n ho.c Thie^n Chu'a gia'o, dde.p trai, ho.c gio?i, ha't
hay, dda`n ngo.t
>nhu+ Hoa`ng, nhu+ng la.i lu+o+`i bie^'ng, ru+o+.u che`, lao va`o thie^`n
va` tha^`n ho.c
>dde^? bie^.n minh cho ba?n cha^'t lu+u manh cu?a mi`nh, du`ng DDu+'c Chu'a
Tro+`i la`m
>bi`nh phong dde^? tha ho^` so^'ng vo^ tra'ch nhie^.m va` vo^ lua^n. Mo^.t
ke? ddo^`ng
>lo~a vo+'i ngu+o+`i em ga'i tha(`ng ba.n ddi ngu? vo+'i Ta^y, ddi quye^'n
ru~ anh cha`ng
>Thu.y DDie^?n xa^'u trai nhu+ vu+`a da^~n, nha(`m la^'y ddo^-la ve^` nuo^i
mi`nh va`
>lo+.i du.ng tha^n xa'c cu?a co^ ga'i na`y suo^'t bo^'n tha'ng nhu+ Hoa`ng,
sao co' the^?
>tro+? tha`nh bie^?u tu+o+.ng cho lu+o+ng ta^m hu+o+'ng thie^.n, cho su+.
tra(n tro+?,
>thao thu+'c ve^` dda.o ddu+'c, sao co' the^? la` no^~i suy tu+ ve^` le~
so^'ng thu+.c
>ta.i va` le~ sie^u hi`nh nhu+ no' ddu+o+.c mo^ ta? trong tie^?u thuye^'t?
Hoa`ng co'
>ngu+o+`i ye^u la` Thu?y ra^'t nghe`o\. Nhu+ng suo^'t na(m na(m ye^u nhau,
anh kho^ng he^`
>giu'p ddo+~ gi` co^, chi?: "Ho^`i Hoa`ng ddi Nam co' mua ta(.ng to^i mo^.t
ddo^i
>sa(ng-ddan Pha'p. Mo'n qua` ta.m go.i la` va^.t cha^'t suo^'t nhu+~ng na(m
ye^u nhau"
>(315). Nhu+ng o+? Sa`i Go`n, Hoa`ng bie^?u die^~n nha.c co' tie^`n la` ddi
bia o^m, la`
>go.i ru+o+.u Remy Martin, "boa" tie^`n cho ga'i bia o^m ra^'t xo^.p: "Anh
ba?o tha(`ng
>nho? ca^`m hai to+` tie^`n cha(~n ddu+a sang cho Khanh" (274). Hoa`ng co'
tho'i quen xa`i
>tie^`n cu?a nhu+~ng ngu+o+`i dda`n ba` mo^.t ca'ch vo^ to^.i va.. Ngay
mo^.t tay tu+ ba?n
>chu+a cha('c dda~ da'm ne'm tie^`n qua cu+?a so^? nhu+ anh; vi' nhu+ trong
la^`n giang
>ho^` va(.t o+? Hue^', no+i anh ddu+o+.c gia?i thu+o+?ng truye^.n nga('n
cu?a ta.p chi'
>"So^ng Hu+o+ng", no+i anh chie^u dda~i ba.n tho+ va(n Hue^' ha`o pho'ng
he^'t mu+'c:
>"To^i o+? Hue^' i't nga`y, nhu+ng dde^'n qua'n na`o cu~ng ke^u Henessy ca?
chai ne^n
>ddu+o+.c thuo^.c ma(.t" (397). Nha~, co^ ba.n ha^.n ti`nh la`m gia`u ba(`ng
buo^n la^.u
>nuo^i Hoa`ng ho+n nuo^i ti`nh nha^n, khie^'n anh su+o+'ng nhu+ gio+`i, lu'c
na`o cu~ng
>uo^'ng ru+o+.u ta^y ha.ng nha^'t. Cha(?ng co' ngu+o+`i vo+. na`o du` dda.i
ty? phu' la.i
>ddu+a tie^`n cho cho^`ng mo^.t ca'ch vo^ ly' nhu+ la` Nha~ ddu+a cho
Hoa`ng, theo kie^?u
>"cu?a kho vo^ ta^.n",
>ma(.c du` ho. chi? la` ba.n chu+' kho^ng pha?i ti`nh nha^n: "DDo+.t ddi
na`y, Nha~ ddu+a
>to^i nhie^`u tie^`n. To^i nga^`n ngu+` cho xe^'p ddo^ xanh va`o tu'i
ngu+.c. Nha~ ho?i
>"dda~ ddu? chu+a", giang ho^` va(.t nhu+ the^' na`y la` qua' nhie^`u"
(386). Mo^.t con
>ngu+o+`i ti`nh kho^ng thie^'u, tie^`n kho^ng thie^'u, ru+o+.u uo^'ng suo^'t
nga`y dde^m
>"Suo^'t tua^`n, Hoa`ng vo+'i Bi'ch uo^'ng hai tu+ tre^n hai tu+" (206),
lu'c na`o cu~ng
>say xi?n, cu~ng "DDo^? phi.ch xuo^'ng salon le` nhe`"(218), lu'c na`o cu~ng
"Tie^.n tay
>mo+? tu? tha^'y chai do+? Gordon lu+o+~ng lu+. uo^'ng the^m ma^'y ly"
(397), sao co'
>the^? la` ngu+o+`i "loay hoay tha^`n ho.c", "co' nhu+~ng tho^ng ddie^.p
cu?a Thie^n Chu'a
>to^i ddo`i thu+.c chu+'ng" (407) ddu+o+.c chu+'? Va^ng, Hoa`ng ddi ti`m y'
nghi~a tha^`n
>ho.c, ti`m tho^ng ddie^.p dda.o ddu+'c Thie^n Chu'a trong qua'n bia o^m
nhu+ the^' na`y
>dda^y: "Hoa`ng tho+? da`i, kho^ng du+`ng ddu+o+.c, ho^n le^n bo^. ngu+.c
ca(ng tro`n
>dde^? tra^`n cu?a co^ be'" (270). Tru+o+'c khi so+` tay va`o bo^. ngu+.c
cu?a co^ bia
>o^m, Hoa`ng va^~n day du+'t ve^` thie^n ddu+o+`ng ddi.a ngu.c, va^~n
kha(?ng ddi.nh mi`nh
>tin va`o Chu'a: "Kho^ng hie^?u co' lua^n ho^`i kho^ng. Mi`nh chi? tin va`o
DDu+'c Chu'a
>duy nha^'t. Krishnamurty dda~ ho?i mo^.t tay qua' ba(n khoa(n ve^` chuye^.n
lua^n ho^`i"
>(269). Ngu+o+`i nhu+ Hoa`ng ke? pha't ngo^n ve^` no^~i day du+'t dda.o
ddu+'c, no^~i a'm
>a?nh hie^.n sinh, qua(`n qua.i nie^`m hu+o+'ng thie^.n vo^ bie^n no+i:
"Su+. cu+'u
>chuo^.c cu?a Chu'a" thu+.c su+. dda~ che^'t chi`m trong hu~ ru+o+.u hu+
vo^, che^'t chi`m
>trong su+. gia? ta.o cu?a ta^m ly' va` ti'nh ca'ch nha^n va^.t; ra(`ng nha`
tho+` vo+'i
>nha` tho^? cu~ng nhu+ nhau, dda.o ddu+'c hay phi dda.o ddu+'c cu~ng nhu+
nhau, thie^.n
>a'c nhu+ nhau, ngu+o+`i va` ngo+.m cu~ng the^' theo do`ng ddo^.c thoa.i
no^.i ta^m cu?a
>Hoa`ng: "Ma` to^i cu~ng co'c ca^`n nha` tho+`. To^i cha(?ng tin ai ca?,
to^i cha(?ng tin
>va`o mo^.t ca'i gi` ca?. Ta^'t ca? chi? lu+`a do^'i\. Ca`ng di.u da`ng
ca`ng nha^n a'i
>la.i ca`ng lu+`a do^'i\. Ca`ng xinh xa('n la.i ca`ng lu+`a do^'i\. DDa^u
co' pha?i lo^~i
>ta.i mi`nh to^i\. DDa^.p vo+~, cu+' dda^.p vo+~ ddi" (395). Ho.a cha(ng,
Hoa`ng chi?
>dda^.p vo+~ ddu+o+.c nghe^. thua^.t cu?a cuo^'n "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a",
chu+' la`m sao
>co' ddu? du~ng khi' dda^.p vo+~ chai ru+o+.u ngoa.i la` thie^n ddu+o+`ng
cu?a anh?
>
>    Ai dda^?y Hoa`ng va`o dda.i bi ki.ch cuo^.c ddo+`i, xo^ anh va`o cha^n
tu+o+`ng ta^m
>tra.ng nhu+ va^.y\? Thu+a cha(?ng ai ca?, chi? la` ta'c gia? Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha` muo^'n
>the^', a'p dda(.t the^', ne^n bi ki.ch cu?a Hoa`ng thu+.c ra la` bi ki.ch
gia?, cha^n
>tu+o+`ng gia?, qua(`n qua.i gia?, ti'nh nha?y xuo^'ng so^ng tu+. tu+? gia?,
tha^'t ti`nh
>gia?. Mo^.t ngu+o+`i tu+`ng ddi lu+`a dda`n ba`, lo+.i du.ng tha^n xa'c va`
tie^`n ba.c
>dda`n ba` nhu+ Hoa`ng pha?i co' cha^'t lu+u manh, pha?i co' ba?n li~nh
cu+.c ky`, sao
>la.i kho'c le^n hu hu nhu+ con ni't khi anh ta't Thu?y, bi. na`ng la(.ng
le~ bo? ddi,
>kho'c nga^'t mo^.t ca'ch gia? ta.o tu+'c cu+o+`i nhu+ the^' na`y: "To^i
kho'c, gu.c ma(.t
>xuo^'ng ca'i ba`n ma^y ngai nga'i mu`i ta`n thuo^'c a^?m ma` nu+'c no+?"
(405). Tro+`i
>o+i, Hoa`ng ye^u Thu?y co' ra gi` dda^u, ye^u ho+`i ho+.t, chi? co^'t lo+.i
du.ng tha^n
>xa'c na`ng, vo^ tra'ch nhie^.m vo+'i na`ng, ho+? ra la` ddi bia o^m ma` sao
khi tu+o+?ng
>sa('p ma^'t na`ng, la.i ti'nh le^n ca^`u Tha(ng Long lao xuo^'ng tu+. tu+?
nhu+ mo^.t
>ca^.u trai nha` que^ la^`n dda^`u ye^u bi.
>ruo^`ng ra^~y, may nho+` Chu'a ni'u la.i chu+' kho^ng dda~ tha`nh mo^`i cho
ca': "To^i
>nhi`n tha^.t dda^.m va`o lo`ng so^ng. To^i tha^'y nho? nhoi va` tua^n theo
y' Chu'a\.
>To^i la` mo^.t ti'n ddo^` Co+ DDo^'c gia'o va` gia'o ly' kho^ng cho phe'p
to^i tu+. hu?y
>hoa.i" (406). Mo^.t ke? vo^ tra'ch nhie^.m, vo^ dda.o ddu+'c nhu+ Hoa`ng,
chi? vi` mo^.t
>nguye^n nha^n co?n con, chu+a ra dda^u la` lo so+. bi. ngu+o+`i ye^u bo?,
dda~ la.i gia~y
>le^n dda`nh dda.ch mo^.t ca'ch ra^'t ki.ch, ra^'t vo+` vi.t, gia? ta.o
the^'; he^.t nhu+
>nha^n va^.t na`y vu+`a tu+` trong "Anh em nha` Kramazov" chui ra a(n va.
lo`ng thu+o+ng
>ca?m cu?a ddo^.c gia?: "To^i he't le^n cho gio.ng mi`nh la.c va`o gio'.
Kho^ng pha?i he't
>ma` la` ga`o go.i\. La.y Chu'a, xin Ngu+o+`i ddu+`ng bo? con" (406). Nhu+ng
ma` Chu'a co'
>bo? Hoa`ng dda^u, Nga`i vu+`a ke'o anh ra kho?i so^ng Ho^`ng la` gi`.
>Chu'a o+i, Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` kho^ng muo^'n dde^? nha^n va^.t cu?a mi`nh
nu+?a vo+`i;
>o^ng dda^?y no' va`o cha^n tu+o+`ng bi ki.ch, mo^.t bi ki.ch phi logic,
mo^.t no^~i ddau
>ddo+'n vay mu+o+.n, qua(`n qua.i vay mu+o+.n, he^.t nhu+ Hoa`ng le^n co+n
a(n va. lu+o+ng
>ta^m, a(n va. chi'nh su+. sa'm ho^'i ra^'t ki.ch va` ra^'t he^` cu?a mi`nh:
"To^i tha?
>ngu+o+`i na(`m xuo^'ng ma(.t ca^`u\. DDo+~
>tha^'y hoang mang, ddo+~ tha^'y hu+ vo^\. To^i la.i tro+? ve^` so+? hu+~u
su+. me^.t mo?i
>va` bo+ vo+" (406). Nhu+~ng co+n nghie^`n hu+ vo^, nghie^`n a'm a?nh dda.o
ddu+'c,
>nghie^`n nie^`m sa'm ho^'i to^.i lo^~i cho ca? the^' gian no+i Hoa`ng,
cuo^'i cu`ng Chu'a
>cu~ng kho^ng cu+'u no^?i, Thu?y va` Nha~ kho^ng cu+'u no^?i\. Chi? co' ta'c
gia? Nguye^~n
>Vie^.t Ha` cu+'u no^?i co+n che^'t dduo^'i
>hu+ vo^, co+n che^'t dduo^'i a'm a?nh dda.o ddu+'c cu?a Hoa`ng ba(`ng ca'ch
giu'i va`o
>tay anh mo^.t chai ru+o+.u Henessy, hay mo^.t chai X.0 thu+o+.ng tha(.ng
kie^?u: "Tie^.n
>tay mo+? tu? la^'y chai do+? Gordon..." o+? nha` Nha~. Nha^n va^.t Hoa`ng,
xu+o+ng so^'ng
>cu?a "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" no'i cho cu`ng la` mo^.t nha^n va^.t gia?,
ti'nh ca'ch va`
>ta^m ly' gia?, bi ki.ch va` no^~i ddau gia?, nhu+~ng a'm a?nh sie^u hi`nh
gia?, chi? la`
>ca'i co+' phi logic, ca'i loa a'p dda(.t so^'ng si't cho Nguye^~n Vie^.t
Ha` tuye^n
>ngo^n. Hoa`ng chi? co' mo^.t loay hoay duy nha^'t la` ru+o+.u\. Chi'nh ra,
Nguye^~n
>Vie^.t Ha` chi? ca^`n da^~n nha^n va^.t chi'nh cu?a mi`nh dde^'n ba'c si~
cai nghie^.n
>la` co' the^? ddu+a Hoa`ng ve^` ne?o thie^.n ca(n. DDa(`ng na`y, nha` va(n
la.i chi? sai
>ddu+o+`ng cho nha^n va^.t. Thie^`n va` Chu'a, nhu+~ng a'm a?nh sie^u hi`nh
va` dda.o
>ddu+'c kho^ng pha?i la` ne?o dde^'n cu?a Hoa`ng. Ra^'t tie^'c, Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha` dda~
>dda(.t le^n vai Hoa`ng mo^.t ca^y tha^.p gia' ba(`ng gia^'y va` sai nha^n
va^.t chi'nh
>cu?a mi`nh va~ mo^` ho^i ru+o+.u ddi ti`m ddo^`i Golgotha dda~ chi.u no^~i
thu+o+ng kho'
>sie^u hi`nh: "Co' le~ suo^'t ddo+`i to^i pha?i le^ le^'t va'c ca^y tha^.p
gia' tha^'t
>ba.i\. La.y Chu'a xin Ngu+o+`i ddu+`ng cho.n con la` va^.y" (434). Kho^ng,
Chu'a co'
>cho.n Hoa`ng dda^u\. Chi'nh Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` dda~ cho.n anh dda^'y
chu+'. DDa^y pha?i
>cha(ng la` su+. chu+a tha`nh co^ng cu?a nghe^. thua^.t no+i "Co+ ho^.i cu?a
Chu'a", khi
>nha` va(n chu+a co' co+ ho^.i cho.n ddu'ng ta.ng va(n mi`nh?
>
>    "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" vie^'t theo kie^?u "ddo^`ng hie^.n", co' nhu+~ng
chu+o+ng
>nha^n va^.t hie^.n le^n qua quan sa't cu?a ta'c gia?, co' nhu+~ng chu+o+ng
nha^n va^.t
>tu+. su+. ba(`ng ngo^i thu+' nha^'t xu+ng "to^i". Khi Hoa`ng xu+ng "to^i"
cu~ng gio^'ng
>he^.t nhu+ Nha~ xu+ng "to^i", cu~ng mo^.t ti'nh ca'ch, mo^.t gio.ng va(n,
mo^.t kie^?u
>da'ng, mo^.t the^ le^ con ca` con ke^\. Ta^m, Huye^`n, Thu?y\... xu+ng
"to^i" cu~ng
>the^'. Nghi~a la`, "Su+. cu+'u chuo^.c cu?a Chu'a", tu+.u trung, chi? co'
mo^.t nha^n
>va^.t duy nha^'t la` Hoa`ng. Nhu+ng Hoa`ng la.i ra^'t gia? ta.o ne^n "Su+.
cu+'u chuo^.c
>cu?a Chu'a" chi? co' mo^.t nha^n va^.t ke'p la` chi'nh ta'c gia? Nguye^~n
Vie^.t Ha`.
>Nghi~a la` mo^.t cuo^'n tie^?u thuye^'t kho^ng co' nha^n va^.t, chi? toa`n
ca'c ti`nh
>huo^'ng, ca'c lo+`i no'i ra^.m ra.p mang ti'nh lua^.n dde^` kho^ng ha(?n
la` trie^'t hay
>tha^`n ho.c, hoa(.c chi? la` kinh nghie^.m tha`nh co^ng va` tha^'t ba.i
cu?a nhu+~ng tay
>tri' thu+'c buo^n la^.u ke^'t ho+.p a(n cho+i ta^'p te^?nh thu+o+.ng lu+u
(!). Thu+.c ra,
>ma?ng so^'ng ma` Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` pha?n a'nh trong "Co+ ho^.i cu?a
Chu'a" du` qua'
>te^. ha.i, qua' suy ddo^`i, chi? co' mo^.t
>ngu+o+`i to^'t duy nha^'t la` Du la.i pha?i vu+o+.t bie^n va` che^'t be^n
My~, nhu+ng co'
>ddie^`u, trong ddo+`i tha^.t, xa^'u to^'t chen nhau, va` ca'i to^'t va^~n
co`n nhie^`u
>la('m chu+' kho^ng chi? mo^.t ma^`u a?m dda.m nhu+ hie^.n thu+.c cuo^'n
sa'ch na`y mie^u
>ta?. Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` co' quye^`n chi? vie^'t ve^` ma?ng ma^`u xa'm cu?a
cuo^.c so^'ng
>ma` anh ta^m huye^'t. Kho^ng ai
>a^'u tri~ quy ke^'t go'c nhi`n he.p, nhi`n to^'i cu?a "Co+ ho^.i cu?a
Chu'a" la` toa`n
>bo^. xa~ ho^.i\. Du` sao, cuo^'n sa'ch cu?a Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` co' the^?
muo^'n gio'ng
>mo^.t tie^'ng chuo^ng ba'o ddo^.ng ve^` mo^.t hie^.n tra.ng ddo+`i so^'ng
ddang co' co+
>dde do.a su+. to^`n vong cu?a da^n to^.c quo^'c gia: a^'y la` su+. ba(ng
hoa.i ve^` dda.o
>ddu+'c, su+. suy ddo^`i nha^n ca'ch, su+. xuo^'ng ca^'p vo^ phu+o+ng cu+'u
chu+~a cu?a
>tho'i vo^ lua^n no+i mo^.t bo^. pha^.n tri' thu+'c bie^'n cha^'t ho^m nay\.
Nhu+ng ddo.c
>xong cuo^'n sa'ch, chu+`ng nhu+ ca'c tri' thu+'c Hoa`ng, Nha~, Ta^m, Bi`nh,
Sa'ng...
>ma(.c du` lu+`a dda?o nhau dde^? so^'ng, ma(.c du` buo^n la^.u, ga.t ti`nh,
tha^.m chi'
>tu+. lu+u manh ho'a, nhu+ng xem ra ho. va^~n ra^'t dda'ng thu+o+ng, va^~n
co' gi` ddo'
>dde`m dde.p, sang sang, to^`i to^.i, buo^`n buo^`n va` chi? la` na.n nha^n
chu+' kho^ng
>ai la` thu? pha.m. a^'y chi'nh la` ddie^`u chu'ng to^i ba(n khoa(n. Ra(`ng
ca'i xa^'u,
>ca'i a'c chu+`ng nhu+ chu+a bi. le^n a'n, la.i co`n vo^ ti`nh ddu+o+.c
bie^.n minh ba(`ng
>thie^`n, ba(`ng Chu'a, ba(`ng nhu+~ng thao thu+'c va` da(`n va(.t trie^'t
ho.c dda^u
>dda^u\. Nguye^~n Vie^.t Ha` kho^ng hie^?u vo^ ti`nh hay co^' y', la.i ddi
trang ddie^?m
>cho ca'i xa^'u ba(`ng ta^'t ca? son pha^'n sie^u hi`nh, du` la` thu+' son
pha^'n vay
>mu+o+.n? Nhu+ the^' na`y, lie^.u "Co+ ho^.i cu?a Chu'a" co' kha? na(ng ta.o
co+ ho^.i cho
>va(n chu+o+ng ddi'ch thu+.c xua^'t hie^.n cha(ng? Hay no' chi? ta.o co+
ho^.i
>cho nhu+~ng gu mi` a(n lie^`n pha`m a(n trong tha^?m my~ nghe^. thua^.t
nha?y ra la`m lao
>xao du+ lua^.n?
>
>                            Tha`nh pho^' Ho^` Chi' Minh nga`y 31-7-1999
>                                         TRa^`N Ma.NH Ha?O
>
>===
>Tuan V Nguyen
>
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