Drops of Dew

Ma

  Maybe it's a rainy day,
  I feel the drops on my face.
  I never broke into the rain -
  I'd promised I never would.
  And though my heart aches and the tears run down my face
  I stay put.

  I believe in my own light
  and I know it falters often.
  Every time I miss a step in this long journey
  I think I've lost it all
  Every time - 'it just about happened'

  I fear that the light I cherish
  grows ever so dim.
  I fear that if I make a grab for it
  I shall shatter
  I can not win.

  Treacherous feelings rise inside me
  they wish to drown me to death.
  In my despair I wonder where I went wrong
  didn't I keep every word I gave myself?
  Yet I know it's my own fault, thus I lose faith.

  Still
  I can't let go
  I must stay put
  Yes
  I promised once,

  This is a journey I've begun to see through
  I must attain my aim, my future stands thus
  my life, my esteem, and more, much more than that,
  my faith stands thus...

  All of them expect so much, I shiver
  I somehow tell myself they're right.
  Bur every time my heart trembles, my hands quiver
  An adamant voice in my heart snaps tight
  To live up to their standards is a tough job
  but after all it's my own life

  And as I look at the spot of light that grows ever so dim,

  I believe
  I believe in me.
  If I have the power enough to keep a promise I made so long
  I have the vigor to climb that ultimate throng.
  It's time I had better sweep away those tears
  and recall what she always told me about defeat and fears:

  "Maybe it's a rainy day. Remember that rainy days are meant to precede the
  October sun. As long as you rely on yourself and keep your cool in these times,
  you rightfully deserve the sun that later shines. Never forget that we are
  always with you... I'm always with you." 
    Thanks Ma